4 weeks to go....and counting
Another 4 weeks to the big exam, the proffesional, the ULTIMATE exam to so call my medical student's life. HOw do i feel? Hmm, tah laa,thinking about it, mixed feeling... and when i added all of it together, the outcome..i felt nothing.
People will ask..."how is ur preparation?" some make their own conclusion.."ala, adli tak yah amik peksa pun dah lulus nyer"....and etc etc etc... Honestly, i'm far from ready. IT is not saying that i will fail if i sit for exam now, infact maybe i will pass.So what is it, why the unreadiness is there...?
It was 1.40am last night, lying on my bed, trying to sleep. Yazid went back at 12.30 after that psy mcq discussion. Tugging myself in that aussino blanket, the thoughts of proffesional came. Evaluating myself, am i ready?, will i perform well? etc etc etc....than it came to me..
Do you ever this feeling of calmness, confident, and happy to face the exam. Wake up in the morning of the exam, excited to face the day, you will wear your best cloth, walk earliear to the hall, sitting there greeeting and smiling to everybody. Sound familiar??.....Yes, no??
Luckily to say, it was always there, when i faced all my major exam, from UPSR, PMR, SPM, Matriculations, First Year, 2nd year , Precilinical Pro. That feeling was amazing, a gift by itself. Hmm,basically that is what i'm waiting for to face this proffesional.....that feeling....hmm...which is basically not really there yet....
So, how to get it? Hmm,preparation is one thing of course...and the other is blessing from him. Both of it, are lacking right now. So, adli, another 4 weeks and counting...and i wish by than...the feeling is there ...do pray for me....
And today is a turning point, i hope. 10 Muharam 1427hijrah, today i turned 24 years old according to islamic year. Asyura, a day that personally i will celebrate, the birth of myself that had changed a lot. I really hope Allah will shine lights through my journey. Hmm, thinking of indulging myself with a nice piece of carrot/cheese cake, or a luxurios icecream, with a chocolate bar....hehe, maser bukak posa nanti. Hmm.....
People will ask..."how is ur preparation?" some make their own conclusion.."ala, adli tak yah amik peksa pun dah lulus nyer"....and etc etc etc... Honestly, i'm far from ready. IT is not saying that i will fail if i sit for exam now, infact maybe i will pass.So what is it, why the unreadiness is there...?
It was 1.40am last night, lying on my bed, trying to sleep. Yazid went back at 12.30 after that psy mcq discussion. Tugging myself in that aussino blanket, the thoughts of proffesional came. Evaluating myself, am i ready?, will i perform well? etc etc etc....than it came to me..
Do you ever this feeling of calmness, confident, and happy to face the exam. Wake up in the morning of the exam, excited to face the day, you will wear your best cloth, walk earliear to the hall, sitting there greeeting and smiling to everybody. Sound familiar??.....Yes, no??
Luckily to say, it was always there, when i faced all my major exam, from UPSR, PMR, SPM, Matriculations, First Year, 2nd year , Precilinical Pro. That feeling was amazing, a gift by itself. Hmm,basically that is what i'm waiting for to face this proffesional.....that feeling....hmm...which is basically not really there yet....
So, how to get it? Hmm,preparation is one thing of course...and the other is blessing from him. Both of it, are lacking right now. So, adli, another 4 weeks and counting...and i wish by than...the feeling is there ...do pray for me....
And today is a turning point, i hope. 10 Muharam 1427hijrah, today i turned 24 years old according to islamic year. Asyura, a day that personally i will celebrate, the birth of myself that had changed a lot. I really hope Allah will shine lights through my journey. Hmm, thinking of indulging myself with a nice piece of carrot/cheese cake, or a luxurios icecream, with a chocolate bar....hehe, maser bukak posa nanti. Hmm.....
